music

so i have to miss a concert because i have class tomorrow.
no bueno.

but i'll be even more upset if i have to miss the Missy Higgins concert because i have a final a few hours before her concert.

i know, college is more important, but i'm still a teenager, i would rather be out having a good time than taking a test any day!

my day was more eventful than yours

woke up
no poptarts, toaster strudels will do
hot tub w/ jenni
pick up tony
beach trip
towed car
guy at motel lied
10 mile walk to towing company
e-mail proof from texas that i can have my car
ridiculous street signs
back tracking
my car!
lost registration
registration renewal reciept
no american express
visa over the phone
$349 to get my own car back
drive home
wash car
hot tub w/ jenni and tony
angry friends b/c of missed calls
shower
pizza
video games
horror movie
drop off tony and jenni
sleep

24 hours is never enough time!

happy cinco de mayo

time

this weekend should be fun.
it will be the first time in about a month that i have a day off, except for when i had to call in sick about a week ago.
but that's a different story.

laryngitis is not fun.

gossip

i told one friend at my old college that i was possibly considering perhaps moving back in january.

haha, how quickly word spread.

decisions

so i might move back to texas.
or i might stay here to finish school.

college has too much control over my life.

:(

i lived here for about 3 months before ever got homesick.
what happens now?

state of happiness

so i've lived in california now for about 2 months.
i've made a few friends, mostly due to the fact that i have a job.
also thanks to fte, and more specifically, sascha.

there are definitely things that i miss about texas, but that's understandable, i mean, i only lived there for 19 years...
thunderstorms, the freeways even, the river running through my college campus, my friends, and acquaintances, smg, my parents, my cat... this list could go on for days.

but despite missing all of those things, i really am enjoying california.

and although i adore texas state, i'm happier in santa clara. i love san marcos, and the school there, and my friends there, colorguard, etc. but i would have never been happy enough there to justify staying. i was happy there b/c of my friends, and colorguard and all of that, but i'm happy here even without those things, so once i start to make more friends here, and hopefully am able to join a colorguard here, i believe things will work out for the best.
i have to believe this. i'm an optimistic person, and it is situations like this that prove just that.

you must always pursue your own happiness over the happiness of another.
i've finally found the truth in that statement.

later.